Bottled Water or More Accessible Water?

Bottled_water

Bottled water or tap water?  Something as naturally occurring as water easily becomes something that is controlled by a few.  Why is this?  Greed?  Is it because, for whatever reason, people will buy it?  Why does someone purchase ordinary tap water that has been bottled?  Is it about convenience?  Is it like, “Now I don’t have to fill a water bottle myself, is that it?”

A possible consequence of this kind of activity is that people become more dependent on the seller of the bottled water than they do on the tap water source.  It’s a dependence, it seems, that they slide into. If they have been led to believe that it is the only safe water, there is a kind of domination, exploitation, and/or oppression in that, no?

This is how it is with Living Water.  It is completely accessible to anyone anywhere.  But some “religious professionals” or “religious organizations” have come to be understood as the source of this Water.  Religious professionals and organizations have a certain value, place, and function; but they do not control the flow of Living Water.  “The time will come,” Jesus says to the woman at the well and to us, “when you will worship neither in this place or in that but in spirit and in truth.”  “Come all who thirst,” he says in another place.  It is really not bottled by the “the controlling few.”  We are all children of the same Water Source; and this abundance is available and completely accessible to all who thirst.  See how true worship relates to social justice? 

--Frank Krebs

How Does Our Prayer Life Relate to the Rest of Our Life?

My intention this Lent is to reflect on prayer again in this blog.  This time though I want to explore some of the ways that prayer relates to other things.  How do those 20 minutes of meditation relate to everything else I do?  Or everything else that is happening around me? 

One thing meditation does (across a variety of types of meditation) is heighten my awareness of things.  I think it might be because awareness is the particular “spiritual muscle” that gets such a workout in meditation.     I can observe something, then I can analyze it according to categories I already have in my head, and then I can make a judgment about that something.  But, as we said in last year’s Lenten blog, if we linger at the first stage, what would that look like?  For one thing it keeps us from leaping to conclusions.  When we are shopping or selling in the marketplace perhaps because time seems so precious) we may feel pressured to make decisions quickly.  What if instead of leaping to conclusions, I linger and sniff and taste and enjoy (or not) and reverence…and allow this thing to truly be itself without my “colonizing” it with my ideas of itself.  This way reality has a way of oozing through.  (It is in this context that an experience of God might show up; I might just be so aware, that I am aware of the River of Life that runs deep within me and sources me.)  When I am simply aware of what is and I don’t try to force the moment into “meaning” something that I want it to mean, then I am reverencing all that is other than me.  That is a great start for the journey to love and do justice.  Awareness is such a great place for the human being fully alive.  Let’s not think about this while we are meditating of course.  But I encourage you to reflect on your experience of meditation when you are away from it and see if this is true for you.

--Frank Krebs

March 12, 2011

Separation Anxiety

     I imagine any mother that raised an infant has a similar picture tattooed somewhere in her heart. It’s an image of a door being closed, behind which a red, screwed up face, is yelling “mama!” It doesn’t matter how many parenting books you read that assures you separation anxiety is totally normal and appropriate, or how competent the child care may be; if you’re gone two minutes to use the bathroom or leaving for the first full day back to work – this image tears at the heart. It is partly so difficult because you know you can’t make that little person understand. “Mama isn’t leaving you. I’m only stepping over here where you can’t see me. You will have what you need. Just trust me!” As much as we wish we could convey this information, the only way a child comes to understand is to have the repeat experience of the loving parent returning to their world. 
     If a baby had more words, it might use those quoted in today’s first reading to express her feelings. “The Lord/Mama has forsaken me; my Lord/Mama has forgotten me.” It’s the voice of separation anxiety. It’s the voice of a people separated from their homeland and experiencing God’s absence. It’s the voice that bubbles inside of us whenever we feel separated from our Source, our security. We may grow out of our infantile separation anxiety so we can function in the world, but anxiety, called by many different names, still plagues our existential reality. 
     There’s an African American spiritual called, “Sometime I feel Like a Motherless Child.” It bears the haunting emotional undercurrent of a people stripped of life and home. But even still, the title alone assumes that even though “Sometimes I feel like a motherless child,” well… “Sometime I don’t. Sometime I feel like a child of God, strong and trusting.” However, it’s those moments when I’m feeling all alone, like I’m “a long way from home,” like I’m “almost gone,” those are the moments that I think today’s gospel speaks to. I stared many homilies this week trying to speak to consumerism, materialism, sustainability, simplicity… but in the end I determined that the core of this gospel is about anxiety, existential anxiety, separation anxiety, and how we cope with this inevitable part of life. 
     Implied within the gospel exist examples of ways we may cope with anxiety that may be less than helpful: worry, hoarding, emphasis on physical comfort, food, wealth, addiction, etc. Attempting to fill the hole left in the wake of our experience of separation, these things become ways of avoiding the experience of anxiety itself, stuffing it down, denying it exists. Even religion can be a way of coping with our anxiety. Many religions are sustained on the promise of reward for a “good life;” divine justification for life events; or hardship now, but heaven later. We don’t have to worry because God will take care of it. 
     But what if the kind of spiritual path Jesus was referring to had nothing to do with filling our anxiety, but seeing anxiety as an invitation, an invitation to trust? Let’s look at the examples from today’s gospel. The birds of the air may not worry about their food source but they also don’t know when a predator might strike or when an ecosystem will become overcrowded and food will become scarce. They trust their world, but it doesn’t mean life will be secure. Similarly with the lilies of the field – they may emerge from the ground to grow into their splendor not knowing a frost will threaten their lives or that passersby may tread on them. But, again, they trust that they are nevertheless connected to their Source, living in the ambiguity of the moment. For us who have a sense of past, present and future, it’s easy to lose track of our Source in the anxiety of the unknown future. But perhaps this anxiety is an invitation. An invitation to deepen our trust in the One who never leaves us or forgets us. 
     As Jesus was offering this teaching I wonder if he had a sense of how his trust would be tested. Did he know that he would be brought to the point of death? Even Jesus in the Gospel of Matthew utters as his last words from the cross, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” Even Jesus knew separation anxiety. This is a pivotal moment of faith for Jesus and for all of us. I want to quote what Peter Rollins writes about this “Holy Saturday” moment: 

     It is a day that speaks of the absence of God and is as much a part of the Christian experience as the day before and the day after. It is the moment when we experience the depth of Christ’s cry on the cross, the moment when we feel abandoned by God and utterly alone in the world. This day is never as far from us as we would wish, for there are times when we all are unsettled by the feeling that we have been abandoned and that everything we believe may be nothing more than empty words and hopeless dreams. This is the horror of the cross, not the blood and suffering of an innocent, but the removal of God. 
     Holy Saturday ridicules the idea that the feeling of God’s absence is reserved for those who are irreligious, for in reality it is only the religious individual who can really know this absence. This is analogous to the experience of waiting for one whom we love in a café. The later they are, the more we experience their absence. Our beloved is absent to everyone in the room but we are the only one who feels it. 
     Who among us does not find ourselves dwelling, from time to time, or perhaps at all times, in the space of Holy Saturday? Yet this day is rarely spoken of and the experience is often seen as one to be avoided or merely tolerated rather than embraced. 

     The challenge that I offer today is to know that we experience this anxiety, the absence of our Mama, of our Source and to embrace it as an invitation. What is God trying to whisper to you from behind the door or through the window? What does it look like to trust instead of attempt to fill the uncomfortable gap? 
     In a little while we will gather around the Table. Some of us may be in a place where the warm embrace of God is right here, where you feel strong and loved and held. That’s great! Be there! But others of us may be coming with a sense of absence, straining to hear, see, taste, touch anything that will tell us that Mama is not gone forever. 
    I close with the arrangement of “Sometimes I feel like a Motherless Child” by Sweet Honey in the Rock as a way for us to meditate on the anxieties we know today. What are they? Can we embrace them? Is there a voice from within our anxiety calling to us from home?

Rev. Jessica Rowley
Eighth Sunday in Ordinary Time
February 26, 2011
Focus texts: Mt 6: 24-34; Is 49: 14-15

"Summertime/Motherless Child"- Mahalia Jackson

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life,
what you will eat or drink,
or about your body, what you will wear. Mt 6

Zion said, “The LORD has forsaken me;
my LORD has forgotten me.”
Can a mother forget her infant,
be without tenderness for the child of her womb?
Even should she forget,
I will never forget you. Is 49

Cellmates

Prison

Photo by Thomas Hawk at flickr.com

An article that inspired part of this week’s homily. Jessica Rowley

Cellmates (Isaiah 35:1-10; Matthew 11:2-11)

by Frederick Niedner

Frederick Niedner teaches theology at Valparaiso University in Valparaiso, Indiana. This article appeared in The Christian Century, November 30, 2004, p.19. Copyright by the Christian Century Foundation; used by permission. Current articles and subscriptions information can be found at www.christiancentury.org This material was prepared for Religion Online by Ted and Winnie Brock.  http://www.religion-online.org/showarticle.asp?title=3108


Few know blindness so profoundly as prisoners who once could see the whole world but now find the universe shrunk to the size of a cell. Inmates hear only what jailers allow, most often some version of "We own you." As for music, the rhythm of one’s own pulse must suffice, and that hardly leads to dancing. One can even forget how to walk.

Such was John’s plight now that Herod had locked him up so as to silence the cranky prophet’s tongue. As the days dragged on, perhaps John could see only that he would never escape the bars unless he got really skinny. But even then, he could never squeeze his head through, so he’d have to leave that behind.

Despite the isolation, rumors from outside reached John. The Coming One he’d baptized and boldly proclaimed had begun to make his move. Soon would come the smiting of evildoers. Judgment on the threshing floor would surely commence. But the news that filtered into prison didn’t have the sound John expected. Jesus was saying things like, "See, I send you out like sheep into the midst of wolves. . . . They will hand you over to councils. . . and you will be dragged before governors and kings because of me. When they persecute you in one town, flee to the next. . . . Do not fear those who kill the body. Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground apart from your Father" (Matt. 10:16-31, passim).

And yet, the sparrows do fall. John would soon be among them. Had John baptized the Messiah for this? Would this Jesus prove his preaching wrong?

The prison of disillusionment that held John has its cell blocks all over our territory. A dear colleague lies dying in the year he would have retired. His mind has more books queued up and ready to write. His heart remains strong and spirit-filled. But cancer, that patient jailer, has made this world tiny. Tubes bind his wasted frame. Morphine has begun to string cobwebs through his brain. The only minor that enters his cell says there are no more towns to which he might flee.

So, Jesus, in whom my friend has trusted, are you the one, or do we look for another?

Jesus sends word back to John that seeing, hearing, walking and rising from the dead have been breaking out all over. Hopefully, when he receives Jesus’ report, John will remember Isaiah’s prophecies about the marvels that light up the wilderness. They will clue John to the truth about the day that’s dawned on his prison cell.

But not completely, not unless John could somehow know as we do the other stop Jesus made in the wilderness after receiving John’s baptism. There Jesus faced huge questions concerning what kind of messiah he would become. Should he -- and how should he -- open the prisons where the hungry starve, where tyrants rule the nations of the world, where disease and accidents knock the young from their temple perches to the rocks below?

When Jesus left the wilderness for the towns of Galilee and Judea, the stones remained inedible. Herod still reigned, and sudden death still stalked the land. Not that somebody wouldn’t have hell to pay for all this nastiness that makes life cheap. But the one to pay it would be Jesus himself. He would go the way of the cross. The road to Jerusalem would prove his Holy Way, a road quite busy with traffic of the unclean and lost fools gone astray. He would go as a sheep among the wolves, straight into prison. There he would die, just as John had done before him.

Yes, John had prepared the way Jesus would traverse, though not in the manner the Baptizer may have thought. John had given the executioners and word-of-God silencers one more round of practice by which to perfect their skills. While he, like the rest of us, looked for a holy way out of prison, the Coming One reversed the dream. His way led into prison and into the wilderness.

Now our way out is his way in, or so Matthew’s Gospel would teach us. When the one for whom John had paved the way told his own followers where his way led and called them to follow, he told them to go straight to hell. "They can’t keep you out," he promised (Matt. 16:18). He bade them, moreover, to carry with them the means of their own execution.

The Holy Way of Advent that cross-toting fools tread leads not out of the wilderness but ever deeper into it. None of us will escape the wilderness anyway. Our whole life happens within its wordless void, on its arid slopes that drain the life from us as we wander in circles learning the same old lessons over and over.

Precisely that dry land shall blossom, however. It will rejoice with singing. Isaiah promised it. I have seen and heard the fulfillment. In the cell where my colleague lies with his dried-up tongue thick with morphine, we break the silence with singing. Indeed, it now seems that all the worship we ever did together, and all the theology we ever taught to our students and to each other, were only practice for this last leg of the wilderness journey

Yes, I’ll tell John what I’ve seen and heard. The crippled dance boldly enough to make all their tubes jiggle. The dumb cry out in whispers of tearful thanks. As sorrow and sighing come and go, the broken-down rejoice at the good news come to stay. But this can happen for John only if I go to his cell and remain there, ready to die with him, ready to join him in singing his head off.

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Bill Viola's "Visitation" at the St. Louis Art Museum a must see!

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Bill Viola: Visitation provides a compelling meditation on the presence of the dead in everyday life. Inspired by devotional art of the Middle Ages, celebrated video artist Bill Viola explores universal themes of life and death, faith and sorrow, heaven and earth.

In Visitation, a 2008 video installation, two ghostly female figures, filmed in grainy black and white, travel from darkness into light. Such a passage suggests movement from the spiritual world into physical existence. After breaking through a threshold of falling water, they emerge incarnate, captured now in high-definition color. Each woman experiences intense emotions; one gasps, overcome with convulsive sobbing. Eventually, they turn away and walk back through the water, becoming immaterial again.

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Catholics celebrating Pride!

It was a wonderful (and warm) day. A group of 300 LGBTQ teens marched in front of us. It gave me goosebumps (in a good way) in spite of the heat.

Jessica Rowley

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